While having a clear out a few days ago, I stumbled across some old diaries. Very rarely do words fail me, but yep, words fail me. In 1992 I was 15 and discovering the joys of sex, Nintendo and amyl nitrate. Oh that life were that simple now, what more could a girl want …?
5th August 1992.
I went to Jason’s at about 2.30, put my bike next to the fire station and went in. His mum answered the door and I went upstairs and played Nintendo. Jason said he was bored so we went for a walk in the graveyard and got off with each other LOADS. He tried to finger me but I had my tights on (stripy from Lowestoft) and jeans (white) so he couldn’t. We came back and just lay on his bed and played Nintendo but got a bit bored so went back to Southwold. Everyone was at the pier when I went back and Emma told me that Lisa shagged Simon.
Was at Jason’s all afternoon, it was pouring with rain and when I got there I was really wet, I went upstairs and Jason wasn’t in his room. I waited a bit then he came in and we played Nintendo and lay on his bed. When he came back he showed me the tattoo he just got of magic mushrooms on his arm (3 mushrooms with stars and swirls around it) we messed around a bit and he was sucking my tits loads, he gave me a love bite and told me he wants to have sex with me. I went home about 6 and met up with Kate, Emma and Sharon we went for a drive in Mark’s car (horny).
Today I got up quite early to do some geography coursework, I went to Jason’s at lunchtime, his mum answered the door, I went upstairs and Jason was playing Nintendo on his bed, all day we were lying on his bed and talking about sex. I’m going to say I’m staying around Sharon’s and then we’re going to do it (music Nirvana and Bob Marley), I can’t wait. He kept telling me how horny I was, he’s so horny. Gary came round at 6 and we did some amyl nitrate, smoked (B&H) and listened to Reggae it was so cool. I then did a hot knife, had a spliff and listened to the Fantasia tape, next time he goes I’m going to go and stay I’m staying at Sharon’s.
A) What the hell is a hot knife?!
B) What is more worrying, the fact that, at 15, I have mentioned ‘hot knives’, amyl nitrate and smoking a spliff in one paragraph or that I thought listening to Reggae (there were no Rastafari present at the time) was cool and acceptable?
We tried to have sex today!!!. I was sitting in the car with Dave, Jason and Rachel, Rachel said Jason’s got something to tell you, and then he said ‘I want to shag you’ so we went on the beach but it was too cold so we went in the loo’s by the side of the pier, we were kissing LOADS but it was really cold and he couldn’t get a hard on so he just fingered me loads and told everyone we did it anyway, he said it doesn’t make any difference anyway as we’d been together all summer and were going to anyway. I’m going to tell mummy I’m staying at Sharon’s tomorrow and go to his house, I can’t wait to do it I know it’s going to be AMAZING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I went to Jason’s in the evening and went into the kitchen (10 mines late) his mum answered the door and Jason had cooked me dinner. (Horny) It was pork chops and beans, we took it upstairs and listened to Emotion 9, we were lying together and playing Nintendo, at about 9 we got into bed, before he went to the bathroom to put on a condom (mates, coloured) and told me to take my clothes off, so I did. He came back in and I only had knickers on he was wearing his silk heart boxer shorts (the ones I gave him) he then got in bed and he got on top of me and pushed his dick in, it really hurt for about 10 seconds then it was quite nice, once it fell out so he had to put it back up. After about 10 minutes he went to get some water, I had a drink then we started again. (Sean opened the door half way through) it lasted about 20 minutes. When it ended he got out of bed and I saw his dick. I went home on his mope head and he dropped me off in Reydon and told me the condom had split. Vicky had sex with Scott too and her condom split as well.
Well that’s an anti climax if there ever was one and I am left more concerned by the ever lingering presence of ‘door opening but nay speak a word’ mother, ‘door opening and stand there gawping’ brother and incessant Nintendo playing than I am about the act itself. On top of which, since when is cooking pork chops ‘Horny’? My God I was deluded even at that age.
mope head? clearly at 15 i prioritized getting laid over spelling, hmm … glad to see there’s a bit of consistency in my life still.
Jason phoned me. He’s going to Amsterdam on Thursday, and Kirsty, little slut, fancies him. He asked if id comes round to his house, I know it’s just for sex he’s not getting me back. Arsehole.
And there you have it, my friends, the story of my frigging life.
Got a virginity story to beat that? Seriously, it can’t be hard ….